My weight has never held me back.
At least that is what I like to tell myself and others.
But what a crock of shit; I am terrified to fly in a plane. I am so very scared that I am going to be asked to purchase a second ticket, or to have to ask for a seat extender. I can't zipline because I am too heavy and would have to be a special exception for a shark dive.
I don't want to be a special consideration because i may be too large or out of shape for something. I want to do all of the things I want without ever thinking of a weight limit.
Conversely my weight doesn't affect everything in my life. I am generally confident, willing to try new things, enjoy dressing up, love outdoor activities...but the hardest thing for me to admit is that my weight could be affecting my ability to have children. My husband and I are currently infertile and I am sickened at the thought that I could be stopping us from having a little one. That alone is worth this change in my life.
Admitting weakness is not something I enjoy but it is necessary for me to be honest with those around me and most importantly myself.
Welcome to my journey.
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